I know why Robin Williams took his life.
You see, I believe to him the thought of death was more comforting than the thought of having Parkinsons Disease.
While I obviously do not know precisely what was in Mr. Williams' had, I believe I understand the (ir) rationality.
I have to start chemotherapy next week for breast cancer. The thought of it TERRFIES me, literally. I do not want to do it.
The thought of death is more comforting to me than the thought of chemotherapy.
I have many people who love me and have surrounded me with prayer; I am so grateful. So while I still feel going to God seems so much better, I am going to try to fight my fear.